This has been a hard year. I was surprised. I had thought that it would get easier. Maybe I have just not stopped long enough to let the emotions clear. My sweetie and I were, as the children were fond of saying, 'so close that we were joined at the hip.'
I do not know what I would have done had I not had all the joyous love that my family and Ned's family has given me. There is a purpose in everything, I am just trying to sort it out.
This was a scripture my husband loved from D&C 76:22 And now, after the many testimonies which have been given of him, this is the testimony, last of all, which we give of him: That he lives!
Ned loved Christ and the gift he gave us. This is what keeps me moving. The knowledge we will be together again. It is Christmas time, a time to rejoice and be glad. I can do this.